In December I left my job with a very stable community mental health agency in Long Beach Ca. This leap of faith has caused a whirlwind of events and emotions that are molding me into a completely different person than I was 5 years ago when I began working there. As I follow my long lost dreams and attempt to find who I am and what I need at this point in my life, I am grateful that God remains unchanged and kept/keeps his promises.
A couple months back several doors opened for me that put me in great position for exposure, a new course of financial stability, and what I perceive as a joyous course for my life. Two months later I still have not walked through those doors. Matter of fact I’m pretty sure I was duped—Like the bird that thinks a door or window was open and flies *smack* into the glass. That crash stuns you for a bit
As I sit here overlooking the ocean stretching out beyond what I can see I think about my journey to get to this point. I think about the glass windows and doors I’ve slammed into without breaking through. I think about how many times I have heard “where is your God now?” from both those who profess to be Christian as well as unbelievers. I think about how my life, the expectations I have, are nowhere near met and I’m reduced to quiet tears. I think God, I’ve done what you have asked and he quickly responds “And so have I”.
You see I prayed for the ability to reduce my caseload at work, do what I’m passionate about, ride my bike on a weekday with friends, write and be able do that sitting beach front at places I can’t even afford to park at. I prayed for a deeper connection, for more time to be spent meditating and creating. He has granted me this! And he has done so repeatedly. As I look out at the ever-expanding ocean I am reminded that he is not finished yet. There is more waiting beyond the horizon. That everything comes in due season. That the death & loss that has occurred, the confusion, doubt and uncertainty of not only God but what’s next has purpose. To strengthen and prepare me. To validate the scriptures in Ecclesiastes 3 that educates us on how seasons change.
There comes a point where it is necessary to encourage yourself by simply taking a seat, reflecting and recalling all that God has done and promised. Doing so puts me in perfect position to see that everyday he encourages me simply by allowing me to wake up. I am confident of this very thing—that he who has begun a great work in me will complete it until the coming of Jesus Christ, and he promises to do the same for you! (Phil 1:6)
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