This is a 3 part series:

Part 1: There’s a war against the mirror. I’m my own worst enemy!
Part 2: I’m a hazard to myself
Part 3: I wanna be somebody else

I was listening to the artist Pink’s song “Don’t Let Me Get Me” recently and as I bobbed my head I remembered how relatable most of the lyrics were to me. The song paints a picture of her hazardous and persistent negative self talk, thoughts, internal fights and a longing to be someone else, anybody else. Those same thoughts rang true for me at that point in my life. I wondered how many people still feel this way. It reminded me how heavily our thought processes and the things we speak over ourselves are.  

There’s a war against the mirror. I’m my own worst enemy!

In the song she sings:

Flashing back to an old post, mainly because I needed to read it again. Hope it can encourage someone else. Originally written 10/15/2011
Come on Esau were you really that hungry? Was Jacob’s cooking just that bomb?!

Ok let me back it up and do a quick recap just in case we aren’t familiar with the story of Jacob and Esau. Well at least the beginning of their story that can be found in Genesis chapter 25 verses 19-34.

*read the following real fast like we are speeding through time*
So Isaac (Abraham’s son) and Rebekah got married. Rebekah was barren but Isaac pled to God regarding this and BOOM she was pregnant with not one but two babies. So while these twin wrestlers were still being carried they fought with each other. Rebekah sought God about this and He told her that two nations were at war in her womb and once they were born “one people [would] be stronger than the other and the older [would] serve the younger” (Genesis 26:23 NKJV).

Esau was born first and then Jacob followed holding onto his big brother’s heel. Esau was the macho 

Yesterday I woke up at 10:10am and automatically thought about John 10:10. This triggered me to think about a post I wrote two years ago dealing with this very verse. It went as follows: 

John 10:10 tells us the devil comes to steal, kill, and destroy. We have the CHOICE to ALLOW him to steal our joy, peace, or the strength we have left, kill the visions and dreams God has given us, kill our ability to encourage ourselves, or destroy our very being. Today I claim we will NOT succumb to the plans of the devil but to that of the Lord! That same verse tells us the Lord has come so we may have life and may have it more abundantly so no matter what is goin on right now, put on the full armor of 

I have a challenge for you but let me introduce it first!

What are our personal reasons behind our faith in God?

Over the last few months I’ve spent some time thinking about why I came to Christ and whether I’ve fully accepted all parts of the gospel: That Christ walked this earth sinless as God wrapped in flesh, died on a cross for my sins, resurrected on the 3rd day and is now sitting on the right hand of the father where he intercedes on my behalf, and that he is going to return one day for his church.

Scripture references: John 1:14; Colossians 2:9 (NIV); 1 Peter 2:22, 24; 1 Corinthians 15:3-4; Mark 16:19; Romans 8:34(b); 1 Thessalonians 4:16-17; 1 Corinthians 15:50-52

I realized that while I have accepted the fullness of the gospel there are some aspects I give more attention to than others. For instance, I will refer to what the cross means to me: tearing of the veil, salvation, forgiveness, freedom, grace and mercy yet rarely discuss Christ’s return or even ask too many questions about it. I think death and the afterlife is an aspect we all unconsciously, or maybe even consciously, ignore often because it seems so distant, mystical, and fantastical. I noticed we don’t really talk about it besides a quick holla at the end of a sermon yet it is the basis of our faith.

I can’t help but to think if I put more attention on the entirety of the gospel that I would live in a